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10 September 2009 @ 08:57 pm
Jim/Pam fic for whedonland ficfest  
Username: vampwolflove
Team (no sig banner): Buffy
fic written for: solookup
Fic title: All I Want For Christmas
Rating & pairing/character: Jim/Pam (The Office)
Word Count: 649
Summary: Pam finds the Christmas letter that Jim had written for her
Link: under the cut

(Set back when Pam is still with Roy just after the season 2 ‘Christmas Party’ episode. It’s pretty much an alternative ending to it.)

‘Dear Pam,

I’ve been thinking that since it’s Christmas I would tell you everything; you deserve it. There’s no other way to write this, believe me when I tell you that this is not my first draft, far from it. I’ve written and re-written and tore up and threw away so many pieces of paper before I found the right way I wanted this card to sound. I should be ashamed of myself really, for all the trees that were killed for those sheets of paper I wasted. It’s for a good cause really, or not, depending on your reaction to this… I’m sorry; I’m getting off track here. I thought I had this down, but I can’t throw away anymore unfinished letters to you. This is it, and this is me, awkward sentences and everything.

I have to get this out before I sidetrack myself and lose your attention. We’ve been friends for a while now, Pam, and we go together so well, and I thought you should know that I love you. I mean, I love you. In every romantic sense of the word. I want to be with you. God, how cheesy do I sound? But there’s no other way to say this, so I’ll just say it. Roy doesn’t deserve you, and neither do I for that matter, but I’m giving it a shot anyway. He doesn’t treat you the way you should be treated. Pam, you deserve to be loved and supported and given everything you ever wanted. I would do anything to be the person to do that for you. I want to make you happy.

I hope that you’ll at least think about this, and I just hope that I haven’t ruined our friendship with this. I’m so sorry to put you in this awkward position but I had to try.

With love,

Pam blinked back tears and swallowed the lump in her throat as she folded the piece of paper back into its envelope and returned it to Jim’s coat pocket where she had found it. She hadn’t meant to read it but the obtruding white envelope had fell to the floor and caught her attention when she had been looking for her jacket. Her name had been written on the envelope and curiosity had gotten the better of her.

She didn’t know what to think. All this time, she knew she had been feeling something towards Jim, but she never believed he felt the same. This made everything so different. How could she go back to that same friendship with him after reading that? How could she pretend that she hadn’t seen it?

Just then, Jim returned from the men’s room, ready to go home for the evening. It was just the two of them.

“Pam?” Jim looked concerned, “Have you been crying?”

“Uh, no,” she looked away and wiped at her face, clearing away the tell-tale stray tear.

Before Jim knew what he was doing, he was hugging her. He hated to see her sad, and it hurt him all the more to see her cry, for whatever reason.

Pam reached around Jim’s waist hugging him tighter. This simple gesture of concern was enough to push her into spontaneity.

“I love you,” she blurted.

“What?” Jim held her out at arm’s length to look at her face. He had to know if she was serious.

“I read the letter,” she mumbled, feeling ashamed, “I didn’t mean to. It just… It fell. And I saw my name, and I read it. And I’m sorry. I didn’t know. But I do, I love you, too.”

Jim barely had enough time to register what exactly this meant before Pam’s lips were on his. She stood on the tips of her toes to reach his height, and he pulled her close.

“Merry Christmas,” she smiled shyly, once the kiss ended.
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if it is too good to be true, it is: The Office ; JAM gigglessolookup on September 10th, 2009 08:35 pm (UTC)

Thank you for taking my prompt. I can totally imagine seeing that in my mind as it happens on TV.

Sheena-Louisevampwolflove on September 10th, 2009 08:54 pm (UTC)
Yay! I'm glad you liked it! :D

AND OMG SUPERNATURAL AND THE OFFICE!! I sooo can't wait! It's been soo long! xD